What's up

God's doin some things

I asked for more of God, to really experience him instead of just act on his principles, and he's changing things. The Word becomes alive. It pierces my heart more. I can worship. I am not cynical (or not nearly as much as I was) and uber critical of every last detail. I can just worship God. Amazing! Until I just wrote these words, I didn't really realize how big of a deal that is. I hardly ever felt like I could worship in any kind of setting before, but now I can anytime I hear a sweet song I like. Crazy. I am becoming more free. It's not natural/normal yet for me to raise my hands, but it's becoming more so (not as worried about other people and what they think). I don't always feel God's presence. Even when I pray, sometimes it feels like nothing has changed since before when I wasn't seeking God's presence out as much. But something is different. His word penetrates me more. I am more willing to speak boldly about things I am learning and experiencing. I can see God working in situations. I am beginning to learn and embrace who I am in Jesus. Slowly. I repeat those promises back to God in prayer, and I am sure of them. I don't have things figured out, but I know that all I need is God's presence in my life, that Jesus would dwell richly in my heart, that I would be sanctified through and through. All I know is that I need to come to God and ask, ask, ask. Be real and ask. I don't feel like one thing is changing incredibly fast, but that just about everything is slowly undergoing a deep shift from its roots. My perspective is becoming different. God's doin some things. God's taking my feeble efforts at speaking and sharing his word and transforming them into something powerful true. I have this growing desire and sense of urgency to be spending quality time alone with God, listening, seeking, asking. I think God's stirring up his people to really embrace him and his Spirit and live with him. I think he's doing something big. That's what's up.

I believe God gives us words of wisdom not only to benefit us but to benefit others. So as I am learning and growing, I'll post some thoughts on this little site. Feel free to check them out if you like.