Spirit

I have thought for a long time that there is more to the Spirit of God than what I have allowed in my life. I see all the power and energy and life-giving examples in the New Testament and it makes me think there is more to God than I have allowed. In a sense, it is almost like I have been dampening the Spirit (1 Thes 5.19ff) when I want to be fanning the flame of the Spirit. Consequently, I have been seeking God, asking for more of Him, to know Him, and to be filled with His Spirit. I have also been exploring the various gifts of the Spirit mentioned and written about in the Word. Things like prophecy, healings, tongues, and other miraculous happenings. I know that all of these things are occurring all over the world right now, which is wonderful, but I want to grow in my understanding and equipping of them. Do I have the gift of prophecy? Maybe. Should I be confident that God can use me to heal people and perform miracles? Absolutely. The whole "charismatic" movement gets a lot of flak because of two reasons: it is just weird to some people, and it has been abused. But just because something is abused doesn't invalidate it. One error doesn't make it ok do do another error. "Do not treat prophecy with contempt, but test everything" (1 Thes 5). I am cautiously seeking after the gifts of the Spirit (1 Cor 13.31), testing everything, not as an end but simply because those could be manifestations and fruit for life with the Spirit of the living God. The goal is to seek God, know God, love God, be consumed by God and for God. As I live in His Spirit more and more, I want to be open to experiencing whatever else His Spirit has in store for me, which could be prophecy, tongues, healings, other miracles, etc.

Any thoughts? Does anyone think I'm going crazy/looney? "If I am out of my mind, it is for God's sake" 2 Cor 5.13a